i surely can('t)

there's a lesson i forget when i am at my lowest low:
i can't do this alone. no, i can't do this alone.
i sink into the self-indulgent solace of slipping away,
which in the end is detrimental to the dawning of my day.
and so i sit in silent shade, alone and oft tormented
as my mind twists and turns itself into something disgusting and demented.
i sit submerged in pain and ponder all that i had lost
when i ran away to spare you all from burden- but at what cost?
i hope that then i'll find some sense and trust in what is true:
that no, i can't do this alone,

but i surely can with you.